DETAINED ACTIVIST ON HUNGER STRIKE- Second Statement From Mabel G

I HAD NEVER DENIED WHAT I DID  WRONG. I HAVE TAKEN FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY ACTIONS , AND MY CRIMES.I WAS PUNISHED-THAT  WAS IN 2012- NOW I AM PUNISHED TWICE, IN 2017 AS A OVER STAYER.

THE LAW SAYS NO ONE SHOULD BE PUNISHED TWICE, VICTIMS OF TORTURE SHOULD NOT BE  DETAINED OR TRAFFIC OR MENTALLY ILL DETAINEES SHOULD NOT BE DETAINED OR DEPORTED, THIS IS ALL WRONG.

ALL I WANT  WAS THE HOME OFFICE -IMMIGRATION GIVE ME AN CHANCE , LIKE EVERY BODY ELSE, I HAD LEANRT MY LESSONS BUT INSTEAD I  AM PROVOKED AND INDIMIDATE BY PEOPLE  WHO SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND ME. WHY I DID WHAT I DONE  AND  NOT TAKING MY CIRSCUMSTANCES AND SITUATIONS NOT IN CONSIDERATION AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF MY CRIME. THIS REALLY HURT AND PAINS ME , I AM CRYING EVREY NIGHT ABOUT MY CHILDREN WHO I AM DIVIDED OR DIVORCED EMOTIONAL AND PHYSICAL,

 I HAD ALREADY LEFT  MY 7 YEARS OLD DAUGTHER IN AFRCA  AND NOW  I CAN’T LEFT MY 7 YEAR OLD DAUTHER UK BORN IRISH DAUGTHER AGAIN,

IT SOMETHING I FIND  EXTREMELY  HARD, DIFFFICULT , I AM AN MOTHER  AND WANTO BE RE-UNITED WITH BOTH MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGTHERS , I WANT TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE , I HAVE SUFFERED ALL MY LIFE AND NOW I AM SUFFERING IN SILENCE BUT STILL I AM MADE TO FEEL WORTHLESS AND USELESS.

I AM A HUMAN BEING LIKE OTHERS AND NO ONE SHOULD BE TREATED TO INHUMANE PUNSIHMENT -TORTURE AND UNNECESSARY SUFFERING AND STRUGGLE IN LIFE  OF ARTICE 3.

I WANTED TO BE LISTENED TO, TAKEN SERIOUSLY AND BELIEVED  AND GIVEN AN CHANCE , HOME OFFICE -IMMIGRATION HAD MAKES  MY SITUATIONS  OF CIRCUMSTANCES MORE COMPLICATED MORE THAN IT WAS ALREADY.

I WANT TO HAVE  LIBERTY -SECURITY AND MOSTLY FAIR  HEARING. AND I DO NOT WANT TO GO AGAIN FROM DETENTION FOR MY IMPORTANT HEARING  HIGH COURT CASE.

WHY IS HOME OFFICE  -IMMIGRATION KEEP ME DETAINED?

WHISLT I CAN GO OUT AND SPENT TIME WITH MY 7 YEAR OLD DAUGTHER . I LOVES MY CHILDREN BOTH SAME AND TREAT THEM SAME EVEN I AM SEPARRATED FROM THEM . THEY KNOW AND  ARE AWARE WAHT I AM GOING THROUGH AND BELIEVE THAT I WILL BE WITH THEM ONEDAY. I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON MY SELF AND MY CHILDREN BECAUSE MY DAUTHERS ARE GOD GFITED CHILDREN  FROM GOD, IT’S TIME I SHOULD TAKE UP MY RESPONSIBIITY FOR MY CHILDREN AND NOT KEEP DETAINED LIKE AND ANIMAL.

I NEVER WAN T TO GIVE CUISTODY OVER  TO THE CHILD’S FATHER BUT IT WAS ALSO THE  BEST INTEREST OF THE CHILD AND BECAUSE OF MY SITUATION OF CIRCUMSTANCES I FING MYSELF AND LACK OF ADVISE INFORMATION. IF I KNEW WHAT I KNOW NOW , I  WILL NEVER GIVE CUSTODY OVER THE FATHER OF MY CHILD AND I WANT TO HAVE SHARED CUSTODY  OF MY CHILD BACK AND BE A MOTHER FOR HER. I TALKS WITH MY DAUGTHER EVERY DAY AND SHE  IS WAITING FOR ME  TO COME BACK  AND BE A MOTER FOR HER. I RATHER CHOOSE TO DIE THAN  TO BE DEPORTED, I CAN’T KEEP LEAVING MY LIFE AS WORTHLESS MEANING LESS ANYMORE.

I HAVE ENOUGH AND ENOUGH IS ENOUGH AND I WILL STAND UP FOR MYSELF AND OTHERS AND NOT TO BE TREATED  AS  WE ARE  HUMAN STATUTE ANYMORE.

I HAD RIGHT TO TALK WITH MY FELOW DETAINEES  WHAT OR WHEN EVER I WANT AND SHOULD NOT BE STOP TO DO SO, THEY ARE NOT MY FRIENDS BUT I CONSIDER TEHM AS MY MOTHER , SISTAS I NEVER HAVE IN MY LIFE AND  AS LONG STANDING DETAINEE AND HAVE EXPERIENCE OF LIFE  INSIDE  YARL’SSWOOD , I FEEL IT MY RESPONSIBILITY TO  MAKE SURE THEY ARE TREATED AS HUMAN BEING. IT DOESN’T MATTER WHERE THEY COME OR  WHO OR WHAT THEY ARE , WE ARE  HERE INSIDE YARL’SWOOD AND  MAKE SURE THAT THEY ARE NOT TREATED INHUMANELY. WE SHOULD DEAL WITH THE SAME  SITUATION WE FIND  OUR SELF AND SHARE  OUR SHORIES AND CRY AND LAUGH TOGETHER AS ONE BIG FAMILY.

IT DOESN’T MEAN BECAUSE WE DETAINED WE  HAD NO RIGHT TO TALK ABOUT HOW WE FEEL AND HOW WE ARE TREATED. THIS DETENTION IS TOTALLY DISGRACE OF SHAME. I MYSELF AM SHAMED  TO BE DETAINED TOO LONG ?

THE WORST PART OF BEING DETAINED TOO LONG IS THE DETAINEES WHO HAD BEEN RELEASE PAST  TWO YEARS  WHIST I AM STILL DETENTION COME BACK AND ASKED ME ‘ ARE YOU STILL HERE?

SOMETIMES OFFICERS -MANAGERS JOKE THAT TIME  HOME OFFICE SHOULD EMPLOYED ME BECAUSE  I AM LONGER THATN THEY WORK HERE?

HOW DO YOU THINK I MUST FEEL?

I HAD TO HOLD UP MY HEAD  HIGH AND WALK FOR MY FREEDOM, THAT THEY SAY BUT  IT WILL NOT STOP ME TO DO WHAT I HAVE  TO DO.

MY CONFIDENTIALILY IS NOT PROTECTED IN THIS PLACE, BECAUSE  OFFICERS -MANAGERS  COME SEARCH MY ROOM AND READ THROUGHT MY CONFIDENTAL PAPERS. EVERYBODY’S KNOWS ABOUT MY HEALTH ISSUES AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SHY – EMBARASSED. BUT I CAN ‘T DENY WHO OR  WHAT I AM , I HAD TO COPE AND DEAL WITH IT, THAT   MAKE ME, ME  AND  THE ONES DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY SITUATIONS , SHOULD  DEALWITH IT TOO.

I WILL SHOW COMPASSION TO THOSE WHO SHOW ME COMPASSION , I WILL SHOW MERCY TO THOSE WHO SHOW ME MERCY. I WILL TREAT AND  RESPECT YOU THE SAME WAY YOU TREAT ME , YOU EARN RESPECT YOU DO NOT BUY IT  OR BY HUMILATE PROVOKE OR INDIMATE PERSON FOR  IT  TO RESPECT YOU. DO NOT TREAT OTHERS THE WAY YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE TREATED AND IF  YOU ARE ONE, SHAME OF YOU. I HAVE LOST RESPECT FOR HOME OFFICE -IMMIGRATION -YARL’SWOOD IT’SELF ,

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO SAY THEM BECASUE TEHY NEVER LISTEN,

YARL’WOOD HEALTH CARE BACK TO AQUARE ONE IS IT WAS  WHNE IT OPEN, YARL’SWOOD HEALTH CARE HAD ALREADY PROBLEMS IN THE PAST BEFORE I CAME.

THE PSYCHIATRIST , DOCTORS , RULE 35 , UNQUALIFIED NURSES ETC  WORTHLESS, USELESS AS  IT  GOES BAD TO WORSE.

THE OFFICERS HAVE  NO DUTY OF CARE , ALL THEY  KNOW AND QUALIFIED TO  DO IT IS KEEP US LOCK UP  AND  PACKED DETAINESS BACK TO ISOLATION   OR KINGFISHER OR FOR DEPORTATIONS.

EVERYTIME  MY THINGS ARE PACKED TO DEPORTATION OR KINGFISHER , I LOSE MY BELONGINGS AND WHEN I QUESTION , NOBODY WNAT TO KNOW. IT SEEMS TO ME  THE  OFFICERS HELP THEM SELF WITH DETAINEES STUFF OR STOLE IT OR  THIEVE OUR STUFF. THIS IS ALSO THE ANOTEHR PROBLEMS WE HAD IN THIS DETENTION WHEN EVER REMOVALS TAKE PLACE BEHIND LOCKED DOORS AND CORRIDORS AND WALLS INSIDE YARL’SWOOD DETENTION CENTRE.

MABEL GAWANAS.